Marci, my youngest brother’s first wife, and their daughter Danielle, have been here for a couple of days, and it’s been a blessing because I have been declining fast. It began with the speading in constriction to the lower halves of my lungs, and the accompanying pain, and has steadily gotten worse. Breathing is difficult, and I just get weaker.

Danielle leaves for basic training (USAF) on 1/5.

I don’t think I have long. I could be in a temporary downward spiral, but I doubt it. I think peace is close.


23 Responses to Honesty

  1. April says:

    I’m sending love from far away and am there in spirit
    even if not in the flesh. There’s more I want to say to you than I had a chance to in previous visits, but I love you and I will miss having you in my life and in the world. I hope you don’t have to leave before I’ve had another chance to see you in person, but I also don’t want you to suffer. I want you to have the peace you deserve. I know you’ll leave when you know it’s right, and you know what I mean.

    Gentle hugs,

  2. orthocath says:

    Know that there are many who pray for you each day and who send their love.

  3. Lisa Bou says:

    I already wrote to you privately, but what April said. If I don’t get out there to you before you have to go, I’m with you in spirit, every day. I love you, honey. I know you’ll do whatever it is you need to do, and that God is with you every second.

    Miss Lisa

  4. Anna says:

    My heart is breaking that you are having to go through this. My thoughts are with you, and I hope you find peace quickly. My father is up there waiting for you, and when you get there, you two will have a great time.

    With all of my love,


  5. Margaret says:

    I’m still praying for you, Mark, and I always will. I’ll keep your name for after I’m tonsured – and Danielle too. With love.

  6. L.V. says:

    People you don’t know are praying for you and holding you before the Lord. Lean on the everlasting arms.

  7. Suzi says:

    Praying for you, still, again.

  8. sevpr says:

    May you face whatever time you have left in peace.

  9. thegeekywife says:

    Dear Brother in Christ,
    Thank you for blogging about the hymns. I don’t think I ever thanked you for it.

    Prayers for you and your family.


  10. Wyatt Earp says:

    Be strong. Keep fighting. Don’t ever quit. And know your relationship with God will get you through it all. If I can, I’ll try and make it up there again soon.


  11. Sebastian says:

    Hang in there prof. I think there’s some fight in you left.

  12. D. says:

    I’m praying for your peace and comfort.

  13. Jean says:

    I, too, can’t possibly say it better than April already has. We want you to stay, but it may be selfish of us if it means denying you of the peace you deserve. Float on gentle waves of peace, Clay.

  14. Jerry Doctor says:

    We’ve never met and, in this life, almost certainly never will. Still, for the last several years, although you’ve never known it, you’ve been a friend. Your blog was a constant source of enjoyment and knowledge. I learned something about life from you. Now I’m learning even more about death. For that I am grateful.

    God bless you.

  15. I pray for you to be surrounded by love in these difficult times. May God shine down on you and bless you and your family.
    My praying for you is a given, if you or your family need anything else, please let me know.

  16. Jo Anne C says:

    You are in my prayers. I am thankful that you have so many loving friends and family.

    God bless you RWP

  17. Fr. Andrew says:

    May our Lord Jesus Christ, our Creator and God, welcome you warmly into His heavenly kingdom!

  18. Anhelyna says:

    May Our Blessed Lady , Mary ever Virgin , keep you in Her most tender care and present you to Her Son

  19. cbullitt says:

    If it is time, my the Lord speed you to his side.

  20. Mary Lanser says:

    Christ’s peace be with you, Clay

    From St. Ambrose of Milan on this the day of his feast:

    The soul has to turn away from the aimless paths of this life, from the defilement of an earthly
    body; it must reach out to those assemblies in heaven (though it is given only to the saints to be
    admitted to them) to sing the praises of God.

    We learn from Scripture how God’s praise is sung to
    the music of the harp:

    Great and wonderful are your deeds, Lord God Almighty; just and true are your ways, King of the nations. Who will not revere and glorify your nature? You alone are holy; all nations will come and worship before you. The soul must also desire to witness your nuptials,Jesus, and to see your bride escorted from earthly to heavenly realities, as all rejoice and sing: All flesh will come before you. No longer will the bride be held in subjection to this passing world but will be made one with the spirit.

    Above all else, holy David prayed that he might see and gaze on this: One thing I have asked of
    the Lord, this I shall pray for: to dwell in the house of the Lord all the days of my life, and to see
    how gracious is the Lord.

  21. Ad Orientem says:

    Prayers for you and yours as you prepare to enter the next room. May God keep you and comfort your family.

    In ICXC

  22. MOGS says:

    God will call you when He’s ready Clay, in the meantime, keep fighting, and God Bless Danielle, she’s about to embark on a heck of an adventure. I should be able to make it up this weekend.

  23. John Gibson says:

    We don’t know each other, I met you through this blog. My prayers are with you as you go through this. I ask the Lord to be with you, I ask his Blessed Mother to pray for you and your family.

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